We Resolve When We Are Ready To Resolve
Today we ran ten miles in the pouring rain!
It was a novelty, and fun... The rain was warm too, splash sploshing down on us for the whole way in torrential enthusiastic manner....
Rain, here in St Lucia, usually lasts five minutes. A cloud makes its way over the island, dropping rain as it goes, and then it is done...
But today we had the first experience of 'set in' rain since we arrived...
I had made a plan yesterday that we would get up early and run along the road to the capital Castries and back again, before rush hour started...
I calculated this all wrong... We were not early enough so there was a constant stream of cars... Fortunately the main road has a path that runs by it on both sides.
I ran in a trance like state with the constant whoosh of vehicles and the rods of rain blurring my vision... Anadi ran behind me and it was like we were on separate runs, locked in our own worlds of water and hills and traffic....
Once 'home', our apartment offered only recovery drink and two oranges in the way of breakfast - 'let's go to Cafe Ole', I suggested...
The rain had stopped and we set off down the road...
Within three minutes it started to fall again... 'We should have caught the bus' I laughed.... At that moment Onell who owns 'Flavours of the grill', a restaurant we love going for their fabulous Friday Gros Islet party Barbeque, drove by... He stopped, piled us into his van and deposited us for breakfast nice and dry...
'You are our Angel on the path' I said to him as we clambered out gratefully....
Greg, my friend and amazing body work therapist in the Uk, has been giving me distant treatments for my funny looking pointy knee, it has been looking strange since I fell on the rocks 6 weeks ago. He asked me if there was any chance of getting a manipulation treatment while I am here...
I have discovered that in these situations all I need do is open myself to that possibility; I assured Greg I was considering it...
Today in Cafe Ole Anadi's power in his computer ran out, and so we moved to a different section of the cafe to 'plug in'. Right in front of me was a little container holding some business cards, they were the cards of a chiropractor called Alan Platt...
I called him straight away and told him my story.... That I still have a pointy knee, a bent little finger and an inflamed index finger from my fall six weeks ago...
'Yes I can help you, when do you want to come?' He asked
'Tomorrow please'
Amy my wonderful PA in the UK, looked up the emotional and psychospiritual connection to knee... In essence it says that knees represent fear of change and fear of moving forward....!
I am conscious that this nomadic journey that Anadi and I embarked on18 months ago has been a very huge change, a very big transition, and we are still in the early stages of our new life....
I have processed fear as it has arisen... In the days before we fully leapt I would wake sometimes at 3am and be aware of fear in my body...
I would breathe into it, and feel it, so that I could let it go and heal. I resisted attaching any stories to it, and so I kept going into the unknown to discover, as my friend Liane describes it, this new unnamed, untamed, unexplored land ....
I am loving discovering it with Anadi - and discovering more and more about him, about myself... And about us as a couple....
But I am also aware that by fully committing to my running, and in effect surrendering to where it might take me, it is of no surprise that the 'fear' should show up in the knee - the very thing I need to go forward on, on the running path ....
There is no pain, only slight stiffness after running, but it has been of concern for me and so it is there for me to investigate - an outward representation of any inner fear....
But things are moving again...
Greg has helped me by giving me lots of good advise, exercises and suggesting I ice my knee after I run.
By addressing it, I am going more deeply into the emotional aspects that it is representing. I have found that when our fear or pain reaches the physical level, it is often more possible to see it more clearly, and so release it...
It can still take time, we can only resolve when we are ready to resolve, and this is apparent given that I have lived with 'pointy knee' for five weeks before seeking help...!
And tomorrow I will come face to face with the re assuring voice of the man at the end of the phone..
