Journey Of The Soul...
There is a wedding happening here...
A beautiful bride, I loved her dress, and her hair, and I got all keen on the idea of Anadi's and my wedding party....
Which will happen eventually... We are planning a mini festival, music and partying in somewhere sunny all afternoon and night....
It will happen when it happens... We can see it - the vision of the event - and so it is 'out there'. Everything happens in the now, so our 'wedding celebration' will happen in the now it happens in!
Meanwhile I am having a book launch as a gathering together...
Back to the wedding going on in the room next to us...
There is very lovely music playing, a lot of it English 60's and 70's which makes my heart lift and my body want to dance...
Music hits the emotions, and at the moment when I have nothing familiar in my life, the sounds I recognise give my heart a joyous leap - even though the themes of my life are the same, everything has been in transition for the last three years...
I was completely happy in Eastbourne with the beautiful South Downs, the sea and my friends...
I had no desire to leave or change; and yet my entire life now is completely different to then!
My orientation has always been to follow my soul growth above everything...
This path can bring up vulnerability on occasion, and I notice that when there is something familiar like a song I used to dance to when I was fourteen, something lifts in me and I notice through recognising the comfort of the familiar, how much Anadi and I have challenged ourselves with 'not knowing' in this adventure, but also how much we both have grown and how much creativity has emerged.
'Why do you think we met?' I asked him the other day, 'because we recognised there would be tremendous growth, transformation and healing' he said.... 'Our vibration matched and we both took the leap and threw ourselves wholeheartedly in, it's only in throwing ourselves fully into things that we truly grow...'
I echo these sentiments...
If we leave a foot out of the door in any project, or business idea, sporting quest or relationship we will not get the same rewards as we journey... And of course the rewards are in the journey not in the outcome, even if that is fun...
A sporting win, a million pounds, an award...... But that isn't the reason we go for things...
We go for things because this life is a journey of the soul on a physical plane in a body...
A little girl has just come over to me and leaned across the chair next to me, her hair all curling down in ringlets, her party frock sparkling, and her eyes too, looking into mine...
I smiled at her 'Hola' I said...
She looked a little confused and uncertain
'Soy Ingles' I said... She smiled shyly and relaxed and stayed a little while...
We didn't speak, not sharing language.
And then she ran off to join in and dance to 'The Birdy song'!