A Meditation On The Move...
I didn't feel much like running today... Anadi didn't either. He decided on a bath instead; and so I headed off up the mountain path alone...
But my body wouldn't run, 'body said no'... And so I walked, up the steep rocky path; I chose to follow a new route and was glad to be out in the magical mountain air...
The weather has been more grey and overcast for the past few days, the clouds were all around us the other day; we were walking through them in the street...
They were wet, damp cumulus clouds, and flying so low that they were sitting about in our village...
I can remember learning about clouds in geography, the different heights they fly at, the different density levels... Are they wispy or fluffy puffy...?
Seeing clouds everywhere today, all around me in the mountains, reminded me of the practice of 'Cloud reading divination', which allows us to access our own intuition and inner messages... Whatever we might see in the shapes of the clouds can tell us something of our own unconscious yearnings and workings... It can be another way for us to make meaning out of the random nature of this existence!
Everything has value if we are aware that it is personal to us...
In the same way the ink blot test is used by some psychologists to examine a person's personality characteristics and emotional functioning, so we can use clouds in the same way...
If we were all to lie on our backs in the same mountainside and look at the clouds we would all see different things and this would access something of our own inner world.... And we could learn more about one another in revealing what we saw...
Looking at the sun behind the clouds now, as I write, shows me a perfect world, pure light.. White light, healing and cleansing, the clouds moving and opening to reveal brightness and beauty...
I recognise in me the eternal optimist, always believing in a bright future and even in my own darkest hours seeing a pin prick of light and knowing 'it would all be alright in the end..'
I recognise that this has been my role for others at times, to hold a torch when they couldn't see light; but of course sometimes even holding a light doesn't mean another will see it or find their way...
Being actually 'in' the cloud was a new experience for me... We had seen them rolling in below the mountains through the valley and now they were here...
Walking in the mountains today was a different experience, a different rhythm... A creative space, where even on the flat downhill bits my body stayed resolutely walking... I invited it to run...but, 'No... walking it is today please...'
I liked it...
Like being in the land rover yesterday and walking today in those same glorious mountains, a different pace, a different movement accessing different aspects of me...
As I walked I had an idea... I will make some running meditations and record them.. I am not sure what they will be... I shared this idea with Anadi... I can write you some music he offered... A mediation on the move....!